This is going to be a quick one, but it's because I felt like my last two entries were so meandering that they were kind of arriving at this point of more clarity so that my messages aren't misconstrued. Although if they are, I can't really control that, but I can do my best to try to offer clarity and to relate them back to the context of who I am and what my life has been like and where I want it to go. And this has to do with, I would say, this destination that I just arrived at is recognizing that part of what has held me back is this mental construct of purity. And what I mean by that is purity or perfection has stood in the way of getting things done.

This can sound so cliche, but it's more nuanced than that. Purity, to me, is like a music synthesizer where you have the single frequency playing. And it feels, it sounds so synthetic because it is an artificial container or entrapment of just that frequency amplified. Whereas when we hear a note in the world, there's an infinite series of oscillations, overtones, sorry, overtones.

There's the timbre, which is the resonant chamber of whatever instrument is emphasizing certain overtones is emphasizing certain overtones over others. And somehow that feels more connected, more, it offers more body. Whereas the clinical synthetic thing is, it's very much like a laser beam. It has its purposes, but it is not something that can be heard or lived with for an entire lifetime.

It's the allopathic instrument device versus the homeopathic holistic homeopathic holistic lifelong care accompaniment melody. So my failed attempts at living a certain kind of life, I think I can attribute to this fixation on purity or perfection, which is unsustainable. Again, it has its moments, but those moments are usually, those moments have to be treated as clinical moments as necessitating something very precise and sharp. Whereas for sustainable change, we need to connect our actions into a web of other causes and effects and conditions.

And so if I know that I have to if I know that I have to paint this morning, but there isn't a bridge to get there, then I can open up my senses to find those overtones that connect these two seemingly dissonant notes. It's moving out of the immediate note into the octave, into other octaves higher and lower, above and below. And when there's a connection, then set it up so that the actions can proceed. So this is a connection between the higher mind or the steward and all of the helpers that are there to execute the plan, because the higher mind can actually take action with its own hands.

It requires embodied forces, which are very much of the lower centers of action, or let's say of physical action, of mental rumination, of emotional charge. And we need to create those bridges so that things happen. We need to become conductors of electricity. Which is so satisfying to think of and to kind of cement in this note, because if I take the example of this morning, knowing that I need to paint, there's also a kindness that I can offer of setting up the right conditions for that painting to flow as effortlessly as possible.

So that would be putting on a certain podcast that I've wanted to listen to anyway, and that I wouldn't have the time to listen to if I went straight to work. So arranging these constellations of support systems that become kind of like the holders of portals, the parameters of code. And it's always that primary of what is the container that it's happening within? What is having to change?

So what is the entropy that we're turning around or reversing? And what is the purpose in doing so? And in the center of that is the actual execution and transformation of a certain thing into being that wasn't there before. So I'm going to go do this right now.

I'm going to go paint and set up the right conditions.

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